Conceal Don’t Reveal


This can’t be real
The jealousy I feel
This, I must never reveal
The emptiness that is for real

But how can I conceal?
This insanity I can’t deal
Knowing only she can appeal
Those smiles I can’t even reveal


I guess we’re not infinite


Swept by the wind
I landed and fell
Into your embrace,
Enfolding me,
Whispering sugar-sweet words in my ear.

Time repeats itself
Bringing me back to when it all started,
The day you taught my heart and it mealted.

Your stare!
Oh your stare!
Looking without drooling I could’nt dare.
Your smile brought cure in my wounded world.

Your lips!
God, Your lips!
Two fleshy protrusians, I love to kiss.

All of these I truly miss..


Ugly Beautiful Scheme


a lot of misfit kids pervade the surroundings
ostractize from society,
treated as an ignominy.

He’s one of them
an innocent human being
pronounce to be condemned.

The cameras never disist
a vociferation of “cut!” has never been heard.
Forcing him to prolong his suffering
making his sob very deafining.

He ordered his tears to stop
telling them never to drop
a shed to could be the end
ruining his act of pretend.

Time for the next scene
Divulging the ugly truth of a beautiful scheme.
Keeping his thoughts to himself
is his act of trickery
in surviving this so called misery



The Light


She said She’s Alright

someone will come 

holding the light

time passed,still none

She waited but deep inside she knows it’s done.

Tears drop,

But she smiled and said she’s not giving up.

Someone will come holding the light.... heartbroken getting heart this image hearts hearted girl tags heart is

Have you ever…


Have you ever felt that feeling when you see him from afar? That can’t stop staring, can’t stop wondering if he’s staring back to you too. That heart melting , wide eyes feeling? Like for a moment your heart suddenly stopped. Not that heart-stopping moment when you dropped your phone on a street canal, seeing your phone almost on the water. Im talking about that UNDESCRIBABLE feeling you get when you see him. It’s like suddenly the world stopped revolving on its stupid orbit. All you can see is him. Like fuck  everything Im contented now.  Or that scene in the movies where a girl gets out of the classroom but when she turns around she sees HIM. She stops for a second, turns around and walks back to her classroom. Trust me, that scene happened in real life. MY life. I thought it only happens in movies. But it did. Unfortunately, it did. Just this afternoon. After that so-called-“INCIDENT” I was like why did I fucking do that!? I shouldn’t have put my books earlier so when that happened I could have drop them like, intentionally, so he could help me pick it up. Like in romantic movies. Your hand meets his .Looking at each others eyes. But sadly I only have my bag, I thought of dropping my bag for him to help me pick it up. But that would only make me look like an idiot. I mean, droping my bag? Seriously, a dumbass way to get the attention of your crush. But that moment when I saw him, his eyes were turning left to right, or like avoiding my presence. But when he really looked at me, that was the time my heart stopped, I stopped breathing ( seriously)  my eyes got wide and then I found myself walking back to our classroom. Myles shouted “WHY DID YOU DO THAT!!?” And approached me. I sat on the floor and burried my head in my cold, trembling ,sweat hands. I asked myself why I did many times. Thinking about it made me weak. Or sleepy. Not in the mood of doing any fucking thing. Honestly, I hate thinking about it but it’s like my mind was against me and always replaying the scene.

I guess that in love or puppy love or whatsoever, your heart is in charge. Even if you think of what will you do when you two meet, for sure you will forget it. You can’t make a script in advance about your conversations you’ll have with him. You will forget all of it the moment you saw him. His smile. His smrik. All. Love is a crazy thing. Love is tricky. Confusing. It can be a medicine but it can also be the reason of your pain. It can make you feel like you’re on cloud nine but also it can make you feel like you’re on the deepest part of hell. But to love you have to take a risk. To love and be loved is the greatest feeling of all the history of greatest feelings .EVER.


Delirium Chapter Six


Mama,Mama, help me get home
I’m out in the woods, I am out of my own.
I found me a warewolf,  a nasty old mutt
It showed me its teeth and went straight for my gut.

Mama, Mama, help me get home
I’m out in the woods,  I am of my own.
I was stopped by a vampire,  a rotting old wreck
It showed me its teeth,  and went straight for my neck.

Mama, Mama, put me to bed
I won’t make it home, I’m already half-dead.
I met an INVALID,  and fell for his art
He showed me his smile,  and went straight to my heart.

-Lauren Oliver

Fandom UNITE!


Messing with my favorite fandom? Do that and I’ll rip your throat out. Stab your fucking heart with a spoon. And difinetly, I will turn you whole life into a living hell.
I’m a big fan of PERCY JACKSON AND HEROES OF OLYMPIS SERIES. So if You ever mess with the chacters, movie and whatso-fucking-ever, better tell your teddy bear to please come alive to protect you because the whole fandom will unite, go straight to your house and murder you. Got that?! GOOD.


( Sorry ’bout the disgraceful words but I wrote this because I saw two videoes on youtube “Everything wrong with Percy Jackson and the lightning thief” and ” Everything wrong with Percy jackson:The sea of monsters. I Watched it and damn! Their reasons why they hate the movie didn’t made any fucking sense! Like , excuse me! You dumbass should read the book first before you start talking. Urghh! Gets me to ma nerves like, URGHH!!)